Catching up!

Hey everyone! I am so sorry that I haven't written on here in awhile. I have been extremely crazy busy. Writing papers, working on school, memorizing a ton of things, working through some things, growing in the Lord through hard times, and so many other things. Anyways, I haven't made the time to write in awhile. Writing is one of my most favorite things to do, no matter my mood... I write. A couple weeks ago it got to the point that I stopped writing because I was down and didn't feel like writing was even helping. A lot of the times however I feel, I love being able to write. But it got to a point that I got extremely down and didn't feel like writing was working. So I stopped. But to tell you the truth, that didn't help at all. It made me feel worse. And I didn't realize until today that I shouldn't have stopped writing. Because God has blessed me the gift of being able to write. So I need to use it for His glory and encourage others.

So here I am writing again. I got very discouraged about writing. People started telling me that I wasn't good enough, that I am a total failure as a friend, a child, a daughter, and so many other things. So I hid myself in my shell. And didn't even want to do anything for awhile. There were a couple weeks that I just tried staying home as much as possible because I didn't want to be around anyone. I didn't want to set myself up for hurt and all that again.

To tell you the truth though, God wasn't wanting that. Through those moments, He has been trying to show me that even though I don't feel like trusting others, even though others tell me I am ugly, even though people tell me that I have no reason for living because I am a failure. God wants me to know that He loves me the way I am. And through these trials He is with me. I can trust Him and He is enough for me. I don't need to worry if I am not "enough" for others. I just need to only think of what my Father thinks of me. And that is that He thinks that I am Fearfully and Wonderfully made.

God is good.