School changes

For awhile I was extremely excited about my senior year, but now that it is coming. I am really not looking forward to it. Too many changes, most of them I don't like. I feel like I am going to be the person that is doing all her school without any outside classes. I am really going to miss GBT. Literally, I am really having a hard time with my school changes, this is probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do. 

Please be praying for me as these changes are not easy. Also, please be praying for my attitude, as it hasn't been the best lately. 

God's Love Never Changes!

Lately I have been being extremely confused by my emotions... I have been jealous in some relationships. I have felt unloved and that I am just a failure. Furthermore, I have had other mixed emotions. But I have been praying and bringing my feelings, burdens, and concerns to the Lord. There are times when I feel like the Lord wouldn't want to listen to me, but then I am reminded of His unchanging love for me. No matter the mistakes I have, God's love for me has never changed. Although, I will continue to make mistakes, God's love will always remain the same.

Thank You, Lord for giving me strength. Continue to help me trust in You in everything I do. 

Kitten love

 Cookies and Cream (CC for short) I don't want to give her up.

 Panda

 York

 Bagheera

 Mommy Sox with her kitties

 CC is the most photogenic out of all of them and is my favorite.

That's My King

This is super encouraging, please take the time to read it. smile emoticon

"That's My King"
Dr. S.M Lockridge

"The Bible says My King is the King of the Jews

He's the King of Israel,
He is the King of Righteousness
He's the King of the Ages
He's the King of Heaven
He's the King of Glory
He's the King of Kings and
He's the Lord of Lords

THAT'S MY KING
I WONDER, DO YOU KNOW HIM?

My King is a Sovereign King
No means of measure can define His Limitless love
He's enduringly strong
He's entirely sincere
He's eternally Steadfast
He's He's Immortally Graceful
He's imperially Powerful
He's Impartially Merciful

THAT'S MY KING

He's the greatest phenomenon that has ever crossed the Horizon of this world.
He's God's Son
He's the sinners Savior
He's the Centerpiece of Civilization
He's the Unparalleled
He's unprecedented
He is the Loftiest idea in Literature
He's the Highest Personality in Philosophy
He's the fundamental doctrine of True Theology
He's the only One qualified to be an all-sufficient Savior.

I WONDER IF YOU KNOW HIM TODAY?

He supplies strength for the weak
He's available for the tempted and the tried
He sympathizes and He saves
He strengthens and sustains
He guards and He guides
He heals the sick
He cleansed Lepers
He forgives sinners
He discharges Debtors
He delivers the captive
He defends the Feeble
He blesses the young
He serves the unfortunate
He regards the aged
He rewards the diligent
He beautifies the meek

I WONDER IF YOU KNOW HIM?

He's the key to knowledge
He's a wellspring of wisdom
He's the doorway of deliverance
He's the pathway of peace
He's the roadway of righteousness
He's the highway of holiness
He's the gateway of Glory

DO YOU KNOW HIM? WELL,

His life is matchless
His goodness is limitless
His mercy is everlasting
His love never changes
His Word is enough
His Grace is sufficient
His reign is righteous
His yoke is easy
His burden is light

I WISH I COULD DESCRIBE HIM TO YOU...

He's indescribable
He's Incomprehensible
He's invincible
He's irresistible
You can't get Him out of you mind
You can't get Him off of your hand
You can't outlive Him
You can't live without Him
The Pharisees couldn't stand Him.
But they found out they couldn't stop Him
Pilate couldn't find any fault in Him
Herod couldn't kill Him
Death couldn't handle Him
And the Grave couldn't hold Him.

THAT'S MY KING!"

Changes!

This summer has been good.... It has been fun relaxing, going to the beach with good friends, hanging out, and just having a good time. Also, there have been some downers though. This whole summer I have been thinking I was going to continue my last year of GBT. But this past week, I was informed that I won't be continuing my last year. It was hard to take that news, but I trust that the Lord has a great plan for my senior year. The only thing that really bummed me out is I wish I was more prepared to be able to say goodbye to my classmates and teacher.
But God has some great plans for me this year, I can already see it.

I will be doing some classes at the college class for some of my General Ed and on the side trying to find a job.

I have been struggling with my anxiety more with all of these changes and things that are going on in my life. But I trust that the Lord has a great plan for my anxiety... I know He will one day be able to use me to encourage and help another that has similar struggles as me.

Thank you so much Lord for letting us go through things so that we can grow closer to you and cling to you daily.

I Surrender All!

About a month and a half ago, my parents saw that are church had open sign ups to go on a summer youth retreat with our church. For a awhile, I was arguing about going. I didn't want to go for various reasons. After a few days of praying and getting counsel from others about going, I decided to go. I still was really not wanting to go, but I felt that God was calling me to go. I know that when God wants us to do things, sometimes he takes us out of our comfort zones. So I decided to go and trust the Lord. 

I went up very nervous and anxious, but continued to trust the Lord. 

I am extremely glad that I went. The Lord really blessed me up there. I learned so much and I don't regret one bit of it. God drew me closer to Himself, He taught me to trust in Him through tough times, He blessed me with close friends on my team and great team leaders, He taught me many wonderful things there, and so much more. 

One praise report is:

When I went up there, I was convicted that I have been holding a ton back in my life and that I was being more of a fan of Jesus than a Follower of Jesus. It was extremely convicting. So the last night of the retreat I decided to commit myself to the Lord fully. 

It has really changed my life. Since I have been down the mountain, I have been challenged.... But it has been really good for me. I have been learning a ton and growing extremely close to the Lord. 

Thank You so much Lord for everything... Thank You for Your unconditional love. 

Clinging to Him!

God has been really teaching me these past seven months. Back in November I was struggling with getting bullied. I didn't share with anyone for about three weeks... Things kept happening, so I decided to open up to my parents and share with them. We tried several things to stop it, and it didn't stop. So I started to learn to trust the Lord through it, even when it was super hard. Other things little by little kept happening. I started having other things happen, started having rumors spread about me, people continued to make fun of me, and I lost "friends" from it. It really stopped me from wanting to go to certain places, stopped me from wanting to do acting in front of people, and other things.
But I one day realized that what people think of me and the mean things they say to me shouldn't matter to me. As most of you know I am a huge people pleaser and when I know people aren't friends with me, it makes me feel super bad.
If this is or has happened to you before, I would really encourage you to do a few things... I have learned these things from what friends, family, counselors, and ultimately what God wants me to do. I pray these suggestions would encourage you and help you (as they are helping me):

First, trust that the Lord has a plan for letting these things happen to you. He is honestly letting these things happen to help you and to draw you closer to Him.

Secondly, try not to be a people pleaser. I have learned that this doesn't help at all. It is extremely stressful always worrying about what people think of you.

Thirdly, try hanging around people that are positive and are there for you. Don't worry about those people who are bullying you. Instead surround yourself with those people that are going to encourage you and be there for you. And surround yourself with people that will stand up for you when you get made fun of.

Fourthly, stand up for others that get made fun of. It really blesses the people and shows the bullies that what they are doing is wrong.

Also, make sure that your parents, mentors, and a close friend knows so that you don't keep it in. That is why we have our family, mentors, and friends. Is to grow from one and another and encourage one another. Don't keep it in. I think that is one of the worst things you can do. I know I did that for awhile, but all it did was discourage, depress, and make me a lot worse. So share with someone that you trust your feelings.

Honestly, God has taught me a ton these past seven months he has taught me to trust Him through bullying situations, difficult situations in school, family situations, struggles with friendships, and with all of this He has drawn me so close to Him. I am so blessed that I have my family, mentors, close friends, and ultimately my Heavenly Father that is here for me.
My Heavenly Father has also taught me to not stop doing what I love even though it was hard. I wanted to stop my acting, singing, and some classes. But my Heavenly Daddy is helping me to continue even when it is hard. Thank you Daddy for the strength you are giving me.