Above ALL!

This song makes me tear up. But I love it.

My Hope is in Christ.

When you feel that you are alone, when relationships go crazy, when people betray you, or gossip or lie about you. We have to remember that God will bring us through it. He is trying to teach us when we are going through all of this. In my case, He is showing me how much I need Him. He is my Friend, my Daddy, my Creator, my All in All, my Hope, my EVERYTHING! And I need to take that and show that and prove it.


Friends are going to fail us, people are going to lie, people are going to gossip, people won't always be there for us, people are going to not meet up to our standards, etc. But we can make God our ALL and take everything to Him.

This is one HUGE thing I have been learning this past year. With some relationships crashing, with people failing me, etc. I have been learning that I NEED God. He is ALWAYS here for me and always will be. Even if everyone else has failed me. He hasn't and will never fail nor leave me.

Keep this in mind.

Failing!

Man, I have felt like I have been failing everyone and everything. I really hate this feeling. It makes me feel extremely bad about myself. I feel that I am so done with everything. Honestly, I don't know how that I can keep moving on. I have no idea what the next step needs to be.

I really don't like the way I have been feeling, I really want to change, I just don't know how too. If you have ever felt this way, and you know a way that has helped you, please email me at: hannahbananacarrotcake@gmail.com

Thank you so much! I really appreciate all the prayers. :)

Who am I?

I am going through a lot right now. Feeling like I have been constantly failing at almost everything. It is not a good feeling at all. It gets me feeling stressed, depressed, and other things. 

Lately, I have been having a problem... Just trying to trust the Lord. I know that God would want me to trust Him through this time, even when it is really hard. I just don't know how to even start, I feel like when I try I tend to fail. It is really hard for me to keep going, after I have failed at it a few times. 

Lord, please help me to trust in You even when it is hard. I know that You are always here for me no matter what. You have been the one that has always been here for me, even after others have left me. You have seen me in a terrible mood, You have seen me in a terrible time of depression, You have seen me through everything I go through and my sins I struggle with. And You still love me. Lord, help me to know that You love me no matter how many times I fail. 

This song below, has been a huge encouragement to me. I really like it. I would encourage you to listen to it and read the words while you are listening to it. :) 

Have a blessed rest of the week! :)

Come as You are

I would encourage you to listen to this song.

It has been a huge blessing to me as I have been going through a lot lately. The lyrics are just super uplifting and helpful. I am so blessed by this song. :)

Identity

For the past couple of months I have been really struggling with a lot. And especially being adopted. Now that I am this age, I have been really struggling with my identity. And a couple months ago, it hit me... I thought that maybe some of my identity issues was because of all my adoption and stuff. I didn't know much about it at the time, and I wanted to know more. I became very bitter towards my family members and others... It wasn't good. I thought I knew what the best was for me, when really it wasn't the time for me to know. 

Finally, my parents told me everything, it was very hard to take. But I am so glad that I know now. 
After I found out, I was still struggling with my identity. It really confused me, because I thought that since I knew everything, that was my identity. After a couple weeks, it hit me...
My identity is not from my parents, or my friends or anyone or anything else.... My identity is in God. 

If I have God, that is what my identity is. 

It has really helped me to know that my identity is in Christ. Even though sometimes I have a hard time with it, I know that it is true. 

I am so blessed to be able to finally realize this awesome truth.

overwhelmed

Super encouraging

Encouraging

This is such an encouraging song... Take the time to listen to it.

Pressing on

The past few days have been extremely difficult for me. I have been very stressed about finals, papers due, and on top of that relationship conflicts I am dealing with, my thoughts, and so many other things. Been bullied because of my appearance and it is making me more self conscious about myself as well. It is super hard...

Lately, I just have been wanting to quit some things that I have been getting bullied in. It makes me want to just hid under a rock and never go out again. It makes me scared to eat, etc. But then one of my friends parents told me that I can't let these people win. If I do, they are only going to continue to do it. Which is totally true, but to think about all that is going on in my life. I feel that it would be a ton easier if I just forget about all these people and quit some of these classes. But then I would be letting them win and get away with it. So I have decided to try and just stick through it. I need to just trust the Lord, and know that God will deal with them about it if they continue. 

It is super hard going through all this when people don't know what I am going through and it is hard, because I feel like no one understands. But even if that were true, I need to continue to remember that God loves me and He understands me COMPLETELY. And He knows what I am going through. 

This morning, I found these verses that really have encouraged me. And for anyone that is going through anything like this, I pray that these verses will encourage you as much as they have me. 

Have a blessed day! :)

1. "It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed." -Deuteronomy 31:8

2. "I have set the LORD continually before me; Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken." -Psalm 16:8

3. "When I am afraid, I will put my trust in Thee. In God, whose word I praise, In God I have put my trust; I shall not be afraid. What can [mere] man do to me?" -Psalm 56:3-4

4. "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16.33

5. "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." -Philippians 4:6-7

6. "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." -John 14.27

7. "You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance." -Psalm 32:7-8

8. 'I have been in labor and hardship, through many sleepless nights, in hunger and thirst, often without food, in cold and exposure. Apart from such external things, there is the daily pressure upon me of concern for all the churches.' -2 Corinthians 11:27-28

9. "When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and rescues them from all their troubles." -Psalm 34:17

10. "So letting your sinful nature control your mind leads to death. But letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace." -Romans 8:6

wearing a mask

Right now I am going through a difficult time feeling like no one really cares about me and that I am not worth anything. Having relationships end, being talked rudely to, being made fun of, and so many other things, this is really hard. When people ask me how I am doing, I usually say that I am doing ok, but in reality... When I am down, it is super hard to be able to not share with your close friend about what you are going through. So sometimes I will share with someone, but it is quite hard for me... Sometimes I will just push it off and act like it is no big deal. (When really it is, I just know that I will cry if I say something) Yes I hate crying in front of others, but I know that it is good to sometimes just get it out.

The thing that I wish we never did was "Wear Masks" People tend to wear them. They act like their life is all fine, when really it is not. I would just suggest that you would all take time to check on friends and family of yours. You never know how much someone is going through until you take the time to talk to them. I would encourage all you who are reading this to take the time to see how a person is doing.